April 2011
4 posts
I don't know how.
I’m at a loss for words here…I’m not even sure how to be myself anymore. I’m always looking for inspiration, and not just to motivate my personal ideas. But to find who I’m supposed to be. I feel like a copy. A fake. and replica. and I don’t even know why. I think those words have such a negative stereotype con-notated to them that it intimidates those who feel...
“Karma is only a bitch if you are (:”
fed up.
Is it so wrong that I’d rather hear, “I love everything you stand up for in life” rather than, “Wow, you’re pretty”….?
Songwriters
Everyone one these singer/songwriters, you know, (the kind that teenage girls spend their nights singing covers of, crying to the lyrics)..secretly I’m jealous of them. I wish I could turn all my past failures, the heartbreaks, the letdowns, the stupid mistakes into a catchy little song that I could record and somehow let him listen to. Sometimes I’d like to stop pretending that I...
January 2011
1 post
My what..? Bestfriend? Oh. I think you meant my...
Best friends.. Why do we have them? They know all our scandelous secrets that could ruin us, and we can’t ever get away with anything because they always know when we’re lying. They’ve seen us with no make up done, they have embarrasing pictures of us on their friends… They never have thier phones on them when you call, and they take FOREVER to text back. Truth is, we...
December 2010
17 posts
It's not your life anymore.
You know what I just realized? You really aren’t that great. You really aren’t all you’re cracked up to be. You really don’t deserve the attention I give you. The dreams I used to have? They’re worthless now. I know this won’t affect you, but I’m throwing everything away. I’m taking back the reigns, and your power is at an end.
I wish I could turn my mind off.
Overthinking, over analyzing..both of these are hobbies of mine. I don’t mean to. I honestly don’t try to. And I sure as hell don’t l i k e to. But I’ve been reckless once before. And I was scarred worse than I’d imagined I could be. I’m not one to rush into things. I’m not one to repeat mistakes. I’m just lonely. And I’m scared. And...
We choose who we let in our lives.
I don’t want to be like everyone else. I want to be different. I want to be a part of your life, but I want it to be by your choice. When you first meet me, I want you to feel like you can tell me anything, because you can. Always. I will never judge you for your past, and I will never look down on you. I want you to know that when you’re walking through life, I’m right by your...
Wow. That's really the only word for it. →
So basically, this guys “photographs”..? yeahh, they’re paintings o:
You should check out his stuff, it’s pretty incredible.
“When you looked into my eyes, and I dared to stare right back…you...”
Life.
I don’t think it’s understood how simple things really are. Everyone takes this life and the meaning gets lost, swirled up amongst all the pain, and confusion, and suffering that’s caused needlessly over the course of just living. But that’s not really life. That’s living behind a closed door, a mask covering your eyes from seeing it. To live is to explore. To...
“I could spend my life just trying to sift through what I could’ve done...”
– Matt Thiessen
I'm Blue Da Ba De Da Ba Dae
Seth Simrell: Good song! haha
Amber: Greattt song (: haha
Seth Simrell: amazing song!!
Amber: f a n t a s t i c song!
Seth: Orgasmic song??
Amber: hahah okkay, you win (:
I could only sing you sad songs, and you could...
When I’m looking into the past, when I see these mistakes laid out so miserably in front of me, I’m torn. Would I erase them? Who would I be if I came complete with a rewind and delete button? I’ve learned. I’ve grown. I’ve changed. I did everything that I did. And nothing can ever change that.
What will it take..?
If I could, I would get up and walk out. Throw away the things I hold onto..these memories, those perfect days..the feelings my heart adores you for. But I know that you wouldn’t care if I did. And for some sick reason, that fact ties me to you. I just want you to care.
Look past this silence.
Some days I want nothing more than to explain to you how much heartbreak you put me through. But I know that you simply wouldn’t care. And that would hurt so much worse than leaving these things unsaid.
Keep your chin up.
Sometimes you just have to realize that everything’s got to slip through your fingers at some point. You can’t hold onto everything forever. Just know that when you feel as though you’ve hit the bottom, you’ve really only created space for yourself to move forward. You can’t find new oceans if you refuse to lose sight of the shore. Memories aren’t meant to be...
“The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad..?
Alice: I’m afraid so, you’re...”
Take the Bad with the Good.
Life is a story. The plot changes, there are unpredicted twists, the good guy doesn’t always win. Sometimes there isn’t a moral. You just have to take it. But more often than not, you learn things from situations you’d honestly rather not be placed in. Isn’t that what makes things worth living for though…? Take the time to enjoy where you are. The grass is not greener...